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I just have to write something here because I feel so overwhelmed and I feel myself pulling away from this blog. It is so hard for me to put into words when my sisters or parents call or people ask me how I am. The truth is that even those people who love me the most get a lot of their insight into how I am feeling from this blog. So I don't want to stop this because I don't want to break the lines of communication. But I am finding it harder and harder to put my feelings into words.
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Please don't give up on me and stop reading.
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It helps me to know that people care. I don't know what to tell them to do or say, but it does help to know that people are still "with me". I feel so alone in my own head.
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I just want someone to tell me that everything will be okay at some point in my future. And more importantly, I want to feel that way. Sometimes I do, but as more days go by it seems that my feelings are intensifying.
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How could this have happened?
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I had a life full of happiness and promise and everything good. Now I can't even make sense of tomorrow. All I know for sure is that my children and I are here. Left.
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