It's weird how some days like today (father's day) can be worse than what you expected.
Today I just want someone to hug me and tell me that everything will be okay, that Joe is alright and that my kids will be okay.
I was sitting at my desk this morning, tears pouring out of my eyes but I was quiet. The kids were playing with the puppy. All of a sudden they were beside me talking to me. I turned to them and told them "You guys I'm sad about daddy today". Alyssa just went about her business with the dog. Luke got the same nervous look that he always does when he sees me like this. I hugged him and kept telling him that I am fine, I am fine, I am fine. I know it's hard for him to see me like that. I feel a little guilty when he sees my tears, but this is life.....and that was his dad.