Monday, October 29, 2007

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Last week was rough. On Monday night my friend Katie's brother passed away after an unbelievable battle with cancer. He was 38, a father of 3 young girls, married 9 years, loved by all who knew him. It hit close to home, and I just didn't have the words to even try to talk about any of it, mostly out of respect for Katie. I know no matter how strongly I identify with this situation, her grief is infinitely worse in losing her brother.
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As everyone probably knows, Katie is Derek's (Joe's business partner's) wife. I've thought a lot this week...wondered.... about how on earth things have gotten so bad. The four of us (Derek, Katie, Joe and I) have had unbelievably good, carefree, happy times. We shared a period of our lives that was FULL in so many ways. We shared a future together because of the business. At times I feel like we are three "kids" all of a sudden thrust into an adult world. I don't know why I feel that way. I felt like we were adults before....but all of a sudden I feel like all three of us are completely out of our element. It's crazy.

I miss my husband.
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3 comments:

Tracey said...

Life sure is hard sometimes and I often wonder why....why?? How can happiness become sadness in a blink of an eye???
I miss my brother and I am so sorry you have to miss such an incredible husband!!
Thinking of you always Robin!!

Tracey said...

Also, my prayers go out to Katie and Derek! I've been thinking of them both this past week! Knowing and still enduring the same deep unexplainable pain is so difficult. I'm so sorry Katie & Derek for your loss!!
Love you both!!

Katie said...

I agree Robin. It's been so weird and so hard for me. All of a sudden two very important people to me are just gone. And there's nothing I can do about it. It has been the hardest three months of my life.
I don't know if my grief is infinitely worse. I guess when you love someone deeply, husband or brother-- it's all the same. It just hurts so much. And here I see two families now that are broken. Missing a husband, brother, son, uncle, etc.
I miss Joe and I miss Dennis. And it seems like way too long to wait until I can see them again.