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Last week was rough. On Monday night my friend Katie's brother passed away after an unbelievable battle with cancer. He was 38, a father of 3 young girls, married 9 years, loved by all who knew him. It hit close to home, and I just didn't have the words to even try to talk about any of it, mostly out of respect for Katie. I know no matter how strongly I identify with this situation, her grief is infinitely worse in losing her brother.
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As everyone probably knows, Katie is Derek's (Joe's business partner's) wife. I've thought a lot this week...wondered.... about how on earth things have gotten so bad. The four of us (Derek, Katie, Joe and I) have had unbelievably good, carefree, happy times. We shared a period of our lives that was FULL in so many ways. We shared a future together because of the business. At times I feel like we are three "kids" all of a sudden thrust into an adult world. I don't know why I feel that way. I felt like we were adults before....but all of a sudden I feel like all three of us are completely out of our element. It's crazy.

I miss my husband.
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