Sunday, April 6, 2008


This was one of my worst weekends since last summer. I woke up on Saturday morning after maybe 3 hours of sleep (I have not been sleeping well which is definitely part of the problem) and I was so DESPERATE at the day that laid out before me. Weekends are usually hard because obviously Joe should be here all day on those days. I took the kids out and we did some things but there is this constant agonizing emptiness inside me. On Sunday, same thing. The time goes by and I am thankful that my kids have so many people who love them, but nothing makes a dent in my loneliness.
The worst part is, there is no end to this. It's not even like X will happen, and then I won't be lonely anymore, or X or X or X. Nothing.
What do I do?


Heather said...

Oh sweetie. This post just breaks my heart. All I can say is: I am thinking of you.

JoAnn said...

i dont know if i can make a dent in your lonliness, but maybe i can make it a little more bearable. call me, call me, call me and i will be right there to amuse you at least.
love you

Steph said...

My heart aches for you.

Katie said...

We're here for you...right up the road.

Jody said...

You know you could have called, I'd have happily sent my husband up!