I received this comment on a post below from December 8.

Justin has left a new comment on your post "Tonight I am devastated. Once again I am left sho...":

ok i understand you are upset with all of this . but as i know your hubby could of broke and missed the truck . this is both of their falts . i am sure he has lost alot of sleep over this . but he does need to drive to make money for his family . you are one sided . if you can sit back and look at your hubby speeding with chicken in between his lags and not useing the full stoping power of his bike and say its all jeremy's falt you are wrong !!! it is both sides falts . your hubby could of broke or even pushed over 3 more inches and missed the truck . jeremy could of waited for him to pass . but you hubby was speeding down a very bad road . you need to lighten up i am sorry and all but for real you are putting all your blame in one place and thats not right . i aint saying jeremy should get off scott free . yes he shouldnt be able to drive outside of work . but they should let him drive for work

Dear Justin:

If you were to speak to the detective in charge of this case and read the police report, you would see that the police do not and have never believed that my husband was speeding. In fact, I have been told MANY times and since the beginning that they believe my husband was going between 30 and 35 miles an hour, which was below the posted speed limit. As for your theory that he was carrying something between is legs, that is just simply not true either. The reason why I know that is because the detective in charge found what my husband purchased at hannaford in his saddlebags. I know that to be true because they impounded the bike and the contents rotted in there and smelled terrible enough that the officer told me about it. He also did not buy chicken.

As to your comment that my husband could have "pushed over 3 more inches" that is absurd. The State Police determined that EVERY inch of the road was covered by the truck and trailer. Mr. Kean's own lawyer did not even dispute that fact. Whatever information you are getting is wrong. Furthermore, if you know SO MUCH about this case, you would know that my husband hit the truck NOT the trailer. So if you thinking that he hit the back of the trailer you are entirely wrong. You can speak to the DNA/forensic experts in Concord about that if you want.

What the police DO say is that they believe that my husband did not use his full braking power. However, can you Justin, say how you would react when you are driving a motorcycle and a dump truck pulling a trailer suddenly pulls in front of you? Can you say how you would react in ANY panic situation? Do you know that when my husband learned to ride a motorcycle the safety courses taught you to NEVER use your front brake when trying to stop quickly? Do you know that my husband rode his bike and did EXACTLY what he was taught to do when he took those safety courses? The fact of the matter is that had the dump truck not pulled in front of my husband, the accident would not have occurred. It says those exact words in the final invetigation and the detective in charge said that to the newspaper months ago, which you can look up if you want to.

Furthermore, I will remind you that I am not the one that decided that Jeremy should lose his license, the STATE OF NH DID. Of course I am one sided in this, my husband was killed in this accident. What exactly would you expect.

As to your comment of him being able to drive for work "so he can make money for his family" I say this: Does MY husband have the luxury to work and make money for HIS family? What you are proposing is to give him a "punishment" but don't make it inconvenience him too much. That you can take up with the State of NH, since again, THEY are the ones that took away his license.

Had you been brave enough to leave an email address for me or not make your profile private, I would have answered your comment directly. It is not fair to me to say those things and expect me not to respond so there is your response. I do appreciate your comment though, because it gives me insight into what misinformation and lies are spread around. I base all of my information on fact, from the police and other official sources, including people who were at the scene. Your information is all based on a made-up story that people circulate so that they can sleep at night I guess. I would have no idea if your friend Jeremy has lost sleep over this because that has never been conveyed to me. Tell me Justin, if an accident occurred tragically taking the person that you loved most on this earth and the driver who caused it never conveyed a word of condolence to you, EVER, how would you feel? You tell me that.

This blog is really intended for my family and others who loved my husband, because he was an unbelievable human. People who read it know that I am a grieving woman working through many issues. If you don't like it, then don't read it. Please.